I found my Feet today, but Now I don't Know what to Do with Them

In this house

there should be walls painted in words and

ceilings high enough to let ideas

circulate and

a hammock underneath it all for me…

Where have all the thoughts gone?

I’ve been in a state of

disarray so long it’s

strange to look down and see

my feet below my knees.

Maybe I’ve finally gone crazy?

Suddenly is sudden but

sudden can take a very gradual long time.

I spent all day doubting.

They tell me doubt makes conviction stronger.

I’ll let you know how it goes

once I find what I did

with my conviction.

It seems to be lost more often than not

of late.

A leaf floated down the glassy surface of the river,

standing upon its shaft of a shadow.

Crazy or not, I swear

I saw a glow around the shadow

and I wondered how it worked

but it floated away and

I couldn’t exactly grab at it.

Where should I wander from here?

Now that I have feet,

I rather think I’d like only to wander

the backyard.

Is it wrong to be without ambitions?

They only seem to get people hurt.

To start to sing would be a waste of air...

We are so young.

So why do I feel so old?